Fed Up & Underfed

I am struggling today, but I’m not sure with what exactly. I’m irritable, fed up, feeling a little rough around the edges and worst of all, I am hungry. This has been easy so far because I haven’t felt hungry – I could eat, I have lots of points left for the day and lots of fresh fruit and veggies available to me, but I’m pretty sure I’ve overdosed on healthy food which is why I’m feeling unwell. Is that even possible? Either way, that healthy(ish) glow I’m sure I was emitting in recent days has long left me behind and my motivation is slipping.

I am trying to set up lots of little milestones which will help to keep me motivated on this journey. (Journey? What is this, Oprah?) Anyway, here are some of the things I am looking forward to:

A big, fat Tunisian wedding! At the end of February one of my wonderful friends is tying the knot under the Tunisian sun with her lovely fella and I am very excited about going over there. This particular lady deserves her big day more than some measly words written by a hormonal and moody dieter could come up with. Saturday 27th February will be a day for her to open up the door to a bright and happy future and put behind her the struggles she’s so bravely overcome in recent years. Tissues at the ready Stellios! X x

Birthday photos. It is my birthday at the end of May and as a treat and an incentive to stick with this, I have booked a photo shoot with my friend Alice – photographer extraordinaire and founder of Bella Luna Photography. Her photos are always beautiful and even if I’m not quite ‘there’ I know she’ll have me looking like I am! As someone who is a little scared of the size of my own shadow, looking at photos of myself is not in my list of fun things to do and although this won’t be easy, I can’t help but feel excited about it! Alice’s website: www.bellalunaphotography.co.uk

Finally, but perhaps most significant to my ultimate goal, my first ‘proper’ holiday. I’ve never been away with friends and I’ve never worn a bikini at the beach, or anywhere else for that matter. This year, in July, I am going on a ‘sun’ holiday with one of my closest pals, I’m going to be at least 100lb lighter than I am now and I am going to wear a g-string bikini, go topless on a nudist beach and truly embrace my new body. Okay… not quite, but I have every intention of having a bloody good time!

Ahh… I feel better already! Now where are those celery sticks...